I got back yesterday from Camp Zoe, a Christian camp for some of the teens we work with here in Thailand. It was a great 5 days of building relationships, having fun, playing crazy games and helping the kids get to know Jesus a little better.
The last night was a worship night and we spent some time thinking about being a light to Thailand. There was an outline of Thailand marked on the floor, with a large wooden cross in the centre. On the cross was a candle. The idea was that we would light our own candles from the one in the middle and set them round the country outline as a symbol that we want to be God’s light in the darkness in this country. My friend Brandi, who facilitated this, asked everyone to consider what purpose God has us here for. I started thinking about this for myself, not just for the young people.
Very quickly, and very clearly, God said that if I lit a candle, it would be a symbol of committing to stay in Thailand – not just shining God’s light in Thailand during this DTS outreach, but staying here long beyond that. I knew I was staying in Asia, but I hadn’t quite been sure what specific country. I hadn’t been fully committed to Thailand longer-term. So I took some time to think about if I wanted to make that commitment by adding my candle to those others were lighting.
I did light the candle and add it to the map. In some ways, it wasn’t easy – I needed to again surrender some of my own ideas and hopes and dreams. But as I made this symbolic gesture and sat looking at the map, I felt the Spirit whisper, ‘This is your country now.’ Not that Northern Ireland will ever stop being my country, but now Thailand is my country too. This makes me really happy.
So Thailand is where I’m staying, where God is calling me to shine his light into the darkness. For how long? I don’t know. I’m not completely sure in what capacity I’m staying either, but I think I’m getting closer to knowing that too – watch this space!